Mmmmmmmmmmmm!

I’m not really a movie person.  Something ADD in me prefers smaller doses than circa two hours (because anything resolved in that dosage is bound to disappoint?), but the addictive personality in me wants stories that go on longer, constant cliffhangers, as in teevee shows.  I like to expect something yet to come, or something.  And sequels generally suck.  But THIS?  Oh.  Emmmmm.  Geeeeeee.  Even being a romcom chick flick, which I really usually can’t stand, even though Mike calls them Amy Movies (ew), I think this will call for popcorn and a big screen.  Yes, definitely.  (Stealing pics from my new plaid pants.)

Yeah, I could pretty much curl up in that dimple and…something.

Totally gratuitous
Le sighhhh

Oh yes, also, Anne Hathaway.  Who has boobs.  So, you know, bonus.

Yeah, more of that, please. Sir.

Well I was sitting, waiting, wishing
You believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs

The Lord knows that this world is cruel
I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning lovin' somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting, waiting on you
Must I always be playing, playing your fool

I sang your songs, I danced your dance
I gave your friends all a chance
But putting up with them
Wasn't worth never having you

Maybe you've been through this before
But it's my first time so please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you

I can't always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool

I keep playing your part
But it's not my scene
Want this plot to twist
I've had enough mystery
Keep building it up
Then shooting me down
But I'm already down

Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting

Well, if I was in your position
I'd put down all my ammunition
I'd wonder why'd it taken me so long

But Lord knows that I'm not you
And if I was, I wouldn't be so cruel
Cause waitin' on love aint so easy to do

Must I always be waiting, waiting on you
Must I always be playing, playing your fool

No, I can't I always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool
(lyrics via)

I got the will to drive myself sleepless.

So much time is cashed.
So much smoke is wasted.
Sudden disappearance
In the air is thick and cool.
I can’t approach myself
Skidding over this perdition
And now I’m out on the verandah
When I should have gone to school.

Well I call for sleep,
But sleep it won’t come to me.
Shuffling in the hallway,
I can hear him on the stairs.
I hear his lighter flicking.
I hear the soft sigh of his inhale.
And the whole width of my intentions
He exhales into the air.

I got the will to drive myself sleepless.

Skeedunt, stunt the runt,
Smoking buddha blunt.

I got the will to drive myself sleepless. 



(lyrics via)

Better than drunken facebooking. Good enough.

Memorable quotes from this accidental long weekend:

Can you come back to the office?
Ummm, no.  Why?

It’s positive.
Whaaaaattt?  Um, okay.  Wow.  Still, no.

Mkay, blood draw on Sunday.
Ummm.  Riiiighttt.  Sure.  I can do that.

Hi.  You are?
Name name name.
DOB?
BlahBlahBlah.
Pause.  Wow.  You do not look as old as this paper says.
Riiiight.  Well, thank you, I guess.

Wow.  Where are the bandaids?
Um.  I dunno.
Sorry, I don’t work here but on the weekends.  I know where some other ones are, though.  Be right back.
Mkay.
DAFFY OR BUGS?
Uhh, I really don’t care.  Rilly.
Mkay, here we go!
Do you have a preferred place for sticking?
Um.  No.  Wherever the vein looks good.  Or the artery, or whatever.
Mkay, some people say, STICK ME HERE.
Um, yeah.  If you see a good one, go for it.
Oooh, here we go!
Okay, go.
Are you okay?
Yup.  Way too used to this.
Dead silence.

Hi.  Name?
Ja.  Hi.
Dropping.
Boo.
Sorry.  Let’s do all this other expensive stuff, mkay?
Mkay.
Ja.
Ja.
KTHXBAI.

Ffffuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

And maybe a third time would be charming.

Look at the stars, 
Look how they shine for you, 
And everything you do, 
Yeah they were all yellow, 

I came along 
I wrote a song for you 
And all the things you do 
And it was called yellow 

So then I took my turn 
Oh all the things I’ve done 
And it was all yellow 

Your skin 
Oh yeah your skin and bones 
Turn into something beautiful 
D’you know you know I love you so 
You know I love you so 

I swam across 
I jumped across for you 
Oh all the things you do 
Cause you were all yellow 

I drew a line 
I drew a line for you 
Oh what a thing to do 
And it was all yellow 

Your skin 
Oh yeah your skin and bones 
Turn into something beautiful 
D’you know for you i bleed myself dry 
For you i bleed myself dry 

Its true look how they shine for you 
look how they shine for you 
look how they shine for you 
look how they shine for you 
look how they shine for you 
look how they shine 
look at the stars look how they shine for you 


(lyrics via)

Twice is good. Thrice is nicer.



(Parabol)
So familiar and overwhelmingly warm

This one, this form I hold now.
Embracing you, this reality here,
This one, this form I hold now, so
Wide eyed and hopeful.
Wide eyed and hopefully wild.
We barely remember what came before this precious moment,
Choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside…
This body holding me, reminding me that I am not alone in
This body makes me feel eternal. All this pain is an illusion.

07 parabola 

We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment,
We are choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside
This holy reality, this holy experience.
Choosing to be here in
This body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal
All this pain is an illusion.
Alive, I
In this holy reality, in this holy experience. Choosing to be here in
This body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal
All this pain is an illusion.
Twirling round with this familiar parable.
Spinning, weaving round each new experience.
Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this chance to be alive and breathing.
This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality.
Embrace this moment. Remember. We are eternal.
All this pain is an illusion.