I used to write a fair amount about politics, back in the day. Then, for a long time, I really did not care much. I was way too preoccupied with anxiety and depression over not knowing whether we’d ever get to bring home a baby, and trying not to acknowledge even to myself that I WANTED to bring home a baby someday. So it waxes and wanes, my political fervor, I suppose. But I wanted to quickly touch on one aspect that ties into this blog – the title. My blogger blog went through several different names, but nothing ever really seemed to click and feel just right. So for a long while, it was titled simply ‘Undecided,’ and it stayed that way for what felt like an eternity, as I sunk deeper and deeper into apathy, not really caring about much other than making it back to my couch at the end of the day to stare at the TV and try to not think about the subject that was all I could ever really think about. Then came the 2008 election season, and along with it, Ms. Sarah Palin. I am about as liberal/libertarian as they come, I think, but I must circle back around and offer sincere gratitude to John McCain for choosing her as his running mate, because it PISSED ME OFF how pandering and condescending and frankly just ignorant the whole thing was. It made me realize, OH! I CAN HAZ FEELINGS! ABOUT STUFF! IN THE WORLD! And I began to care again, to be less stuck in my head, in the never-ending internal dialogue that I rarely dared to even voice aloud. Granted, this was all after my very first miscarriage, and I had varying reactions after each subsequent one, but during that campaign I decided that ‘Undecided’ was the very last thing that my blog should be named. Still lacking any creativity or willingness to commit to tying any one specific word or phrase to my own life’s chronicles (what can I say, I hate to be defined. Too constricting.), I simply changed it to ‘Not Undecided.’ It stayed that way long enough that I eventually started seeing the phrase turn up in my keywords/search terms, so I figured it had better stay that way, so that anyone looking for it without a bookmark could find it again. And so here we are.
(I never did change the url to reflect the title, though. I have often thought that it should be ‘hard to MAKE a human,’ rather than ‘hard to be human,’ but again, I kind of like the built-in history reflection, even if I’m the only one who can recognize it.)
So, while I am not Obama’s biggest fan (looooooong way to go on civil liberties, civil rights, drug policy, the whole not killing innocent people thing, etc., etc.), I am deeply, deeply relieved to not be entering a Mittens presidency, for I firmly believe that it would be a far scarier thing than what we have now, which I will continue to critique (though not always here, I’m sure). Shudder. I think that’s all I need to say about that.
(Except also, YAY for the huge advances made in the Senate and House races, as well as ballot initiatives for marriage equality and legalization. YAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!)