It’s kind of unsettling how shallow my bellybutton is getting. I’m guessing there’s no way it won’t pop out at some point in the next 15ish weeks. I have gained plenty of weight, but I still tend to look down at my belly and think…eh, not so big. Looking at my profile in the mirror leaves me with a completely different impression, though. It’s more like, WHOA. I really should take more pictures.
Still feeling lots of movement – which can now also be seen from the outside. Every time I feel him moving around and kicking I sort of want to drop everything and just stare at my belly. I don’t know how to describe it. It’s…yes, Alien-esque, but also…pretty much the best thing ever.
Had a doctor’s appointment this morning – everything seems to be going well. My blood pressure was up a bit, though not in any kind of warning or danger zone. Will check it again this evening when I go to the pharmacy to pick up heparin and vitamins. Had to admit that I have been feeling what I’m pretty sure are contractions, sometimes a few a day. Nothing consistent or progressive, so I haven’t panicked or worried too much about it, but I was sure to mention it this morning. I have nothing to compare them to, so I figure they’re Braxton-Hicks. Was enough to get a cervical length check – still at 2.5 cm, which she says is “within normal range,” but…damn Dr. Google. Seems short to me
. Kind of scary, but I’m not freaking out, since there was no funneling. I guess I will just pay close attention to the contractions (funny, haven’t felt any today since I brought it up) and make sure to drink a lot of water and try to de-stress. Work has been supremely annoying, and I skipped yoga last week. I think I’m going to try a different studio for a few weeks…if they return my email. The class is a bit earlier in the evening, so I’ll get home sooner.
Sadly, though not unexpectedly I guess, she did not seem to have gotten more information for me about the birth center and whether being on blood thinners disqualifies me. I did call, and left a message, and they called me back and left me a message, but I haven’t called again yet. It took a ridiculous amount of convincing myself to just dial the number the first time. I’m afraid they’re going to say no way, not gonna happen, too bad so sad. Still, I am leaning toward that hospital rather than the one my current OB would have me go to…so I may be switching OBs regardless. Seems petty, to a point, but when I compare the tours, one was so much more encouraging of going the natural route, even in L&D and not in the birth center. The other seemed to assume I’d want the epidural and the monitor and everything else and dammit, I don’t want to assume that. I realize I may get into it and change my mind in a hurry, but I at least want to really give myself a chance.
To that end, I may have found a doula. Her experience is very impressive and she’s not too expensive, so I should probably just go for it. My hesitation here is mainly what I find on her Facebook page. First…it’s one of those weird me-and-my-hubby-share-EVERYTHING deals – seriously? Second, it says she has “conservative” politics and religious beliefs. Meh…I’m assuming she’d be respectful of my heathen liberalism, but it’s hard to say. I may keep looking a bit, but I’m starting to feel like these things need to start falling into place soon. Eek.